Skipping Ahead

satsu_the_clown @ 2007-10-20T13:44:00

2007-10-20T17:47:46Z

I'm in the process of creating a writing journal, so I may not be around this one much.
~~The only resone I'm posting this is because I haven't posted anything in over a month and now feel required too.~~
It feels weird, almost like I'm juggling lives, but I want to see wear it takes me.
~~Plus I kinda like having a fresh start.~~

Have a good day,
Satsu

My Wrist Hurt Now...

2007-09-09T17:54:56Z

I fell like crying.
I had to do a Genealogy project for History , and I knew it was going to be easy. My Mom was inbetween jobs for a while and she realy got in to geneaolgy. So naturally I just copied all of the stuff she found out. It took me a week to copy by hand but I can now tell you what relative lived in West Virgina wean it was still Virgina and wean they got married. It was all well and good until yesterday.

Yesterday I spent nearly five hours entering this crap in to a word document for the final draft, then e-mailing it to my self because I'm at the library and I forgot to bring the money to print it off. So I come back to the library today, find a computer log in and get in to my e-mail account. But the e-mail isn't there. The projects do tomorrow. I typed up seven damned pages yesterday. So I freaked and typed six of those seven pages in under thirty minutes.

Moral of this story, Back up all documents and if not you better type like your life's depending on it.

satsu_the_clown @ 2007-09-01T12:06:00

2007-09-01T16:14:40Z

I've noticed something very odd going on in recent months... I've been getting reviews,favs, and author favs for my Inuyasha fics. This might not seam odd to most but I haven't even looked at the damn things for at least two years. So I've been wondering, is their some weird pairings movement going on the Inuyasha fandum? And if there is why stories that haven't been touched in over 12 months? Surely there some newer stuff out their....

Or maybe I'm just paranoid.

Oh, I'm now in love with Microsoft Fireworks ~<3 I would be playing with it right now but the computers at the Library don't have them :( So I'm going to go watch the Golden Compass trailer now.

Satsu

satsu_the_clown @ 2007-08-27T15:06:00

2007-08-27T19:11:12Z

The Spanish language has official kicked my ass, so I do by hear surrender and agree to study my ass of for the rest of the year ( and the rest of my high school carer damn it! ) in hopes of passing.

The good news is, I can now do simple HTML and I hope I will be able to make my own site by the end of the year.

Satsu

P.S.: My friend scored tickets to X fest!!! Guess who's going :D :D :D !!!

satsu_the_clown @ 2007-07-28T13:26:00

2007-07-28T17:37:37Z

I can't believe how fast the summer has gone by!
Of course it all ways goes by faster if you do nothing, but that's not the point. I'm jittery about my classes but that's to be expected.
I can honestly say I want school to start so I can get the first few weeks over with and get back into the motions of things.

Oh, The Golden Compass looks amazing! I'm so glad there making it, and I simply can't wait to see it! :D

Satsu

How fast life can be compromised ( The Hell Song )

2007-07-23T18:07:53Z

What would you do if you wear so socially unable that you weren't able to date a guy you know and don't hate for a week? What if he kinda started hitting on you after at least four months? What if you realy, realy just wanted him to go away? Is that messed up?

The Hell Song by Sum 41

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things youve been through

I fear Ive come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Stand back to see whats going on
I cant believe this happened to you, this happened to you

Its just a problem that were faced with
Am I not the only one that hates to standby
Complications headed first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind

Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Cant patch that back and as for me, I cant believe

[chorus:]
Part of me, wont agree
Cause I dont know if its for sure
Sunnenly, suddenly
I dont feel so insecure
Anymore

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
What else are we supposed to do

Part of me, wont agree
Cause I dont know if its for sure
Sunnenly, suddenly
I dont feel so insecure
Anymore

Part of me, wont agree
Cause I dont know if its for sure
Sunnenly, suddenly
I dont feel so insecure
Anymore

(why do things that matter the most
Never end up cutting close
Now that I find out, it aint so bad
I dont think I knew what I had)

Kansas - Carry On My Way Ward Son

2007-07-12T16:38:21Z

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high

Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune
But I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
No!

Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
The center lights around your vanity
But surely heaven waits for you

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)

Ben 10 x Kevin 11

2007-07-05T18:08:31Z

I finished them! I freak'n finished them!!

Fandom: Ben 10
Pairing: Ben Tennyson x Kevin
Theme set: Alpha
Rating: T
Warning: Mentions of sex and death. Oh and I kinda killed any grammar that I might have had doing this.

Note: Some of these ( most I think ) are set wean Ben and Kevin are older.

#01 – Comfort: They fell into their rolls with a scary amount of ease, the hero and the villain, it was easier that way.

#02 – Kiss: Ben could taste his blood on his lips, salty and harsh like a penny, until Kevin licked it away.

#03 – Soft: It had surprised Gwen, how soft the older teen could be to her cousin out side of the battle field.

#04 – Pain: He had expect to feel something, some sort of accomplishment and delight, wean he finale defeated Ben but all he could feel was a dull loneliness and a sharp pain in his gut.

#05 – Potatoes: “Some times life is unfair Benny” Kevin said with a grin as he popped the last French fry into his mouth.

#06 – Rain- It was the rain that Kevin missed the most, drifting so far from the marble he called a home, or at least hat’s what he convinced him self he did.

#07 – Chocolate: Ben quickly learned to share his chocolate with Kevin, the older teen had a wicked temper that often got them both in trouble.

#08 – Happiness: There relation ship was complicated at its best and violent at it’s worst, but no one could say that they hadn’t made each other happy.

#09 – Telephone: It took Kevin two weeks of Ben being gone to find the wonders of phone sex, it took a week an a half for Gwen to pick up on one of there “conversations” and put an end to it.

#10 – Ears: Ever time Kevin whispered promises of forever in his ears after they made love Ben couldn’t help but thinking that he had fallen in love with a liar.

#11 – Name: “Bitch” Kevin hissed as he wiped the blood from his chin.

#12 – Sensual: There was something oddly sensual about the way Kevin smiled, and it scarred Ben to think of why.

#13 – Death: They both knew it would end like this, but that didn’t mean they wanted it.

#14 – Sex: Kevin’s affection for the younger boy was odd, to say the least, it was a mixture of love and hate his sadistic nature and of course a nice big helping of a sexual addiction, but it was there.

#15 – Touch: “Come on, this one’s easy” Kevin whined as he pocked Ben in his hip only to have his lover roll his eyes at him and go back to his homework.

#16 – Weakness: They both had there weaknesses, there soft spots, but those they kept carefully guarded, from each other most of all.

#17 – Tears: He wasn’t crying because of the pain, they both knew that, and they were both ok ignoring the real resound why, at least for now.

#18 – Speed: Kevin had expected his attraction to Ben to be brief and bright like a firework, but nearly two years later he finally realized that it wasn’t going to be that simple.

#19 – Wind: “Come on Ben, be the wind beneath my wings.” Kevin taunted drunkenly as he pulled the other boy down on the bed with him.

#20 – Freedom: “Theirs no freedom in love, love” Kevin said as he flicked a used match in to the trash can “so best enjoy it while it last.”

#21 – Life: “Pain is necessary,” Ben said pausing only for a moment to glare at Kevin as he made a comment about bondage “It is the only thing that separates the living from the non living.”

#22 – Jealousy: All Kevin could remember was seeing them together not two weeks after Ben had left him, but he wasn’t an idiot, he could guess wear the blood on his hands came from.

#23 – Hands: “Hands” Ben hissed as he felt Kevin’s slip into his jeans.

#24 – Taste: Kevin thought Ben was addictively tasty, all salt, sweat, and skin yet oddly sweet with sex, but he had no plans on ever telling him.

#25 – Devotion: Kevin’s devotion wasn’t obvious on the out side, he had at least two other partners while he was with Ben, but he had never been big on showing affection.

#26 – Forever: There was no such thing as forever, especially for them, and they both knew it.

#27 – Blood: “This is never going to come out” Ben said with a sigh as he glared at the blood stain on his shirt, his boyfriend’s only comment was to laugh.

#28 – Sickness : Out of all the things they had yelled at each other that night, and there had been quite a lot, the one that really hurt was wean Ben told him he was sick right before slamming the door and leaving.

#29 – Melody: Ben was a lot of things, musically inclined was not one of them, but Kevin could forgive him for that.

#30 – Star: “I don’t know why people love looking at them so much” Kevin sighed as Ben kept looking up at the stars.

#31 – Home: It rely does look like a marble, Kevin thought as his ship drew closure to Earth with ever second.

#32 – Confusion: All Ben could remember was Kevin being close, to close, and kissing him the next thing he knew he was pinned to a wall half naked.

#33 – Fear: He left, but looking back it was hard to convince himself that he hadn’t run out of fear that Ben would do it first.

#34 - Lightning/Thunder: Kevin had to suppress his smile as a crash of thunder rattled the windows and Ben pressed him self even closer.

#35 – Bonds: “I can live with these bonds” Ben said as met his lovers gaze “But the question is, can you ?”

#36 – Market: “The world has enough heroes for now, you should wait until a few of them die, don’t give me that look you know they will.”

#37 – Technology: The Omnitrix gave off a steady ghostly green light from it’s place on his wrist, and Kevin found him self wondering wear they would be with out it.

#38 – Gift: Kevin watched in amusement as Ben warily opened his gift.

#39 – Smile: Sometimes Ben wondered why he stayed with Kevin and then he would smile, and Ben found it hard to even think about leaving.

#40 – Innocence: Sometimes wean Ben was sleeping next to him Kevin’s heart would break with the thought of how he’d hurt him, and how he was going to, but sometimes it didn’t so it evened out.

#41 – Completion: Ben sometimes wondered how Kevin could make him feel so painfully complete one moment and so completely empty the next.

#42 – Clouds: “That is not a rabbit,” Kevin said as he pointed up at the cloud accusingly.

#43 – Sky: Wean Ben asked what he loved about traveling Kevin gave him a lie about the sky.

#44 – Heaven: There wear moments, sweet and rare, that Kevin let him self believe there was such a thing as forever and a heaven.

#45 – Hell: But he could never shake his certainty that there was a hell, and he was going there, no matter what Ben said.

#46 – Sun: Sometimes Kevin swore Ben gave off a glow, but then again he might be being bias.

#47 – Moon: Ben thought Kevin was a night person, the moon had a way of softening all of his harsh lines and making his eyes shine.

#48 – Waves: Ben knew for a fact grief didn’t come in stages, it came in waves that could suck you under and never let you go if you left them.

#49 – Hair: Kevin wanted to be alone, but couldn’t find it in him to push the other boy away once he felt his hair on his cheek.

#50 – Supernova: Something went wrong with the watch the only thing the survivors could compare it to was a dieing sun.

ex posted to:

ben10_x_kevin11 and 1sentence

Hinder - Homecoming Queen Lyrics

2007-07-03T15:45:23Z

Hinder- Homecoming Queen

It's been five years since Ive seen her face
She's the holy ghost lost without a trace
And now were left with the what ifs
It's been five years since she left for LA
She's an angel with a dirty face
And it seems to me
She's a casuality of all the pressure
That we put on her
And now we've lost her for good
It's such a shame shame shame
That our homecoming queen
Was a lot like you and a lot like me
And she never walked on water
Guess no one really saw her

She was so adored by everyone
When it came to looks she was next to none
But loved partying and having too much fun
Then she hooked up with the wrong someone
And he promised everything under the sun
And it seems to me
She's a casuality of all the pressure
That he put on her
And now we've lost her for good
It's such a shame shame shame
That our homecoming queen
Was a lot like you and a lot like me
And she never walked on water
Cause no one really saw her
It's such a shame shame shame
That our homecoming queen
Had a lot to prove and so many to please
She's just somebody's daughter
Just looking for somebody to love her

Well I never knew you
Wish I could've saved you
From losers that drained you
Before you got strung out
With so much potential
How could you let us down
It's such a shame shame shame
That our homecoming queen
Was a lot like you and a lot like me
And she never walked on water
Cause no one really saw her
Shame shame shame
That our homecoming queen
Had a lot to prove and so many to please
She's just somebody's daughter
Just looking for somebody to love her
She's just somebody's daughter
Just looking for somebody to love her

It's such a shame shame shame...

Me spamming your friends page? NEVER! :D

2007-06-30T16:19:18Z

I update Freaks!!! *explodes from happiness*

Now I just have to dig up the Doctor Annimouse or what ever the hell his name is that has been decomposing in my mail box for this side of forever. Gato would you be willing to beta it ~~if my mailbox hasn't eaten it~~ ?

All so posted an Author note at the end of Crying Blood to say that there will be no sequel. I'm actual kinda shocked that i still get reviews for it, considering it's ~~really~~ old and sucky.

Loves,
Satsu

Lyrics: The Road I Must Travel

2007-06-25T15:48:40Z

Well I climbed the seven summits
And I swam the seven seas
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
I fought in the jungles
And I fought in the streets
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
Once I had a reason
Don't know what it could be
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
Well I sang to myself
That I want to be free
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see

I walked the empty desert
And I was burned in the heat
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
I crossed the frozen wasteland
And in the bitter cold did freeze
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
And I will knock on every door
For I do not have a key
And the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
Well I sang to myself
That I want to be free
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see

They shot a man in Soho
Couldn't guess his age
I found his empty journal
I filled up every page
I called up my state senator
They said he wasn't there
The secretary took my name
And man she sounded scared
So I counted my misfortunes
I added up the blame
I picked through all the garbage
I checked off all the names
I read in the newspaper
They'd questioned all my friends
They hoped that they could find me
Before I struck again
Well I sang to myself
That I want to be free
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see

So when thirsty I will drink
When hungry I will steal
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
So tonight I walk in anger
With worn shoes on my feet
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see
And I will sing to myself
That I'm gonna be free
But the road I must travel
Its end I cannot see

There's a sign along the highway
But it's too dark now to read

~ The Nightwatch man

House WTF!!!!!!

2007-05-30T19:25:43Z

I've become rather abscessed with the show House MD recently, so of coarse I've found some rather lovely slash shipps. Mainly House/Wilson but I'm a sucker for House/Chase. So the season finaly relay, relay pissed me off.

He fired Chase. He fired Chase! They're getting rid of the ducklings..... WHAT THE CRAP!!! Are they crazy! I don't think I can wait for the new season to see if any of them come back ( which they have to, or the show simply will not be the show).

God some times I just want to hit people.

P.S. Liked the husband, hated the wife.

Rant

2007-04-17T19:24:30Z

Dear Unsigned Reviewer of CBBW:

Thank you for pointing out the fact my spelling does indeed suck, I know this and have since found the wonderful people who known as betas. I have a few things to say to you: I am not five if I was I wouldn't be on fanfiction.net, you use the word 'damn' to many times and the shift key to little to be taken seriously. Please if you ever contact me again do it under your account, I have a feeling you have one. Oh and please stop abusing the poor coma and use a period for once.

Hope you rot,
Satsu

I hate it wean people leave flames with out leaving an email address or even a name! I mean come on, if you are a real flamer you at least have the pride to put your name on it! I know CBABW sucks, I kinda wrought it after all, people reviewing and telling me it's bad doesn't bother me at all but if the first word in your review is 'damn' which you just happen to use 12 words later I find it disturbing and aggravating.

Loves,
Satsu

Blah

2007-04-10T20:23:15Z

Hmm...
It's been so long I'm not sure what to wright . My mom might be mad at me, forgot to call in again, but I left her a note so she might not be. ~~Cramping like a dieing cow~~, god sometimes life sucks! Need to enter my drabble into gen_drabbles.
They still haven't got Hell To Pay by Simon R Green in yet, kinda pissed about that. I have fallen in love with the Norrington/Will pairing from POTC, to bad there is like non out there. My cat has been fighting thrue our solid glass no screens window with another cat, jumping and hissing the hole bit, and now she sits there guarding it.

That's about it,

Loves
Fuzz

P.S: Still need to edit Charmcaster. :D

satsu_the_clown @ 2007-02-03T14:00:00

2007-02-03T19:05:39Z

Hello loves,

School is getting, well schoolesh. Planning what classes to take next year has got me a flitter with nerves, they realy should give us more time to schedual it all out! I've been watching King Arthur(2004) for about a week now. It's a good movie, just slowly passed. I've all so been dreaming up and actualy writing things down too.
I still need to finish editing Charmcaster.

Loves,
Satsu

satsu_the_clown @ 2006-11-27T17:00:00

2006-11-27T21:00:34Z

It feels great to finaly be working on my story again! :D But some thing has come up that just might put a damper on it, I no longer have cabole so I no longer get Cartoon-Network. I do how ever plan to watch them on YouTube,from the libarary and find out any thing I missed from Wiki. I'm still daboling in orginal fiction and am kinda sorta doing research. But I think i'm to young to be devoting any thing real in to it, but you never know.

P.S: I love my new icon .

Peace and Love,
Satsu

Crash and Burn

2006-10-01T19:24:03Z

It sadness me to say my computer has fallen victum to a virus and until we can get all seven restart disks it is dead. But I can however get on at the library - as I am now - so not all hope is lost.

I will still finish writting Freaks, and may even come out with more fanfiction.

Love all ways,
Satsu

satsu_the_clown @ 2006-09-08T21:00:00

2006-09-09T01:05:03Z

I'm grounded for the weekend, kinda sucky but nothing big.

Kinda sad that I didn't see my friend at the football game - that I left less than half way thrue- I was realy kinda angry at the time but I cooled my jets some and know relise it was probably harmones or some weird shit like that.

I'm thinking of starting ( It's harder than I rember to start a multi chapter story !) an orignale fiction on FictionPress.net.

I have some neat ideas, now if they would only stop changing on me I could get some work done!

Much love,
Satsu

Unspell Checked Boring Day

2006-08-16T00:35:40Z

My first day of high school was rather boring... nothing realy happened except for the part wear my tech class teacher gave us flippen home work!!!! But it was easy so it's not that big of a deal , just hte fact that he did it.

Shit, I can't join the anime club and my school because it's on the same day as my knitting ( did I spell that right ? ) class... yes I take knitting, it's rather fun.

Even shittyer is I have like no classes with my group ( still got a few with some friends thou ) so I see no one I normaly sit with which realy sucks ass.. Thear are like Senories in my math class..... There is no way in hell I'm failing any of my classes this year, not that I have ever failed any besides Math.

Started the bases of a plot for an orignal fiction I realy, realy want to write. But thear is so much detail, I used a hole page to describe ( vaguly) one city... and thears like six of theam !!!!

Un spell checked because I'm lazy and evil like that......

Ooooh Flyleaf = ~~way better than Green Day~~The best !

I realy need to get Kraab's,Charmcaster's, and some one else's Freaks chapter(s) doun... I have some idea's for thear theams but I might just want to rethink theam ( I don't want ot have to go thrue three or four rewrites like I did with Sixsix *_* )

satsu_the_clown @ 2006-08-07T20:33:00

2006-08-08T00:35:20Z

This is just a test on posting icons.....

B day

2006-08-04T16:14:26Z

Yay only one more year till i can get my drivers permit !

On a nother note, my grandma stopped by while I had this turned Pet by Perfect Circle turned up. I think it might have scared her.

I might see Saw for the first time later today, kinda nerves but I've seen The Ring ( and have been scared by it ) it's can't be much worst.....right ?

satsu_the_clown @ 2006-07-28T20:05:00

2006-07-29T00:11:38Z

Summer Gym is now over, woot!

Now it's time to become depressed by day time TV!

My friend gave me the sound track to The Fantastic 4, man I love it. It has more rap than I'm use to but it's good.

Pulse and The Desent looking fricken scary.

Shipps

2006-07-26T22:22:03Z

I was bored, so I typed up a small list of some of the pairings I ship.......

Pairings in bold are my favorite(s) for that fandum.

Inuyasha :
Kouga/Kagome
Bankotsu/Kagome
Hiten/Kagome
Bankotsu/Jakotsu
Jakotsu/Inuyasha
Naruke/Kagome

Ben 10:
Kevin/Ben
Ben/Ghostfreak ( I blame Ghost Freak Out )
Gwen/Charmcaster
Hex/Gwen
Sixsix/Kraab

Danny Phantom :
Danny/Skulker
Danny/Vlad
Danny/Ember
Jazz/Clockwork
Clockwork/Dan

Supernatural:
Dean/Sam

Sky High:
Warren/Will

Buff&Angle :
Buffy/Spike
Fred/Spike
Illyria/Spike
Illyria/Angle
Faith/Buffy

FullMetal Alchemist:
Envy/Ed
Envy/Lust
Lust/Greed
Greed/Kimberly
Hawkeye/Roy
Envy/Greed

Invader Zim/Squee/JTHM :
Zim/Dib
Zim/Gaz
Gaz/Gir
Gir/Zim

Todd/Pepito

Older!Todd/Johnny
Johnny/Edgar
Johnny/Jimmy
Jimmy/Edgar

Jak and Daxter:
Jak/Daxter
Jak/Torn
Jak/Erol(Errol)
Daxter/Tess
Jak/Jinx ( This is my favorite pairing to date. )
Jak/Ashlein
Dark Jak/Jak
Light Jak/ Dark Jak

Spider-Man:
Venom/Peter
Harry/Peter

House M.D.:
House/Chase
House/Wilson
House/Cuddy

satsu_the_clown @ 2006-07-14T18:47:00

2006-07-14T22:52:32Z

01. The character I first fell in love with
02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
03. The character everyone else loves that I don't
04. The character I love that everyone else hates
05. The character I used to love but don't any longer
06. The character I would shag anytime
07. The character I'd want to be like
08. The character I'd slap
09. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise

I tag any one who read this........

01. Kouga [Inuyasha]
02. Hex [Ben 10]
03. Inuyasha [Inuyasha]
04. Sixsix[Ben 10]
05. Kouga[Inuyasha]
06. Jak [ Jak and Daxter ]
07. Kagome [Inuyasha]
08. Ayame [Inuyasha]
09. Right now Kevin/Ben [Ben 10]
10. KougaAyame [ Inuyasha ]